shadowchanty

Dear Taylor,  Happy birthday beautiful <3 Yeah, I'm going to be ridiculously corny right now, but as I said before you only deserve the bestwishes. You're one of the sweetest girls I've met, let alone the only girl who promised to make me happy. I wish I was with you today to cuddle. Love you a lil bit for ya birthday :} Whenever you write a cute textpost about me, I can't breathe. They are the absolute most thoughtful thing I've ever read. You know just about everything to make a girl feel special. You literally make me feel so good about myself, and I'd hope I can make you feel a little something. I'm usually great with words but for

I feel really uncomfortable today. I haven't felt this way in a long fucking time. I just don't feel good. Not physically, mentally. There's no venting to anybody anymore because words don't come out right and nobody actually cares. I've been good, my head's been on my shoulders & I feel as if I'm caving in and there's no way out. Doesn't make sense because I've been so fucking positive. I'm just not okay with how I look or how I've been acting towards things. I'm fucking up and I'm afraid there's no turning back. I don't know what I miss or why I miss it. I think I'm just disgusted with myself to be honest. I'm kind of scared of what's going

They kill me every year. I know that this year will be the same. I really have nothing to look forward to, except if I could my best friend or if I could hang out with Katelyn but I just don't know. I'm just so unsure about everything lately it's crazy. I just can't take it. I just want to be happy, I just want someone to spend the holidays with. Does anyone want to come over to my house and cuddle? We can drink tons of hot chocolate, watch Christmas movies, and just talk about things. That's all I need. Just somebody to stick around for once. Too bad it'll probably never happen. Sorry for being so depressing, I just haven't been feeling